The helluva week of my life

The most sorrowful week of mine just passed...
Last week was just meant to lose for me..

* People (SPM/PM/PA) who were running around full of garbage ( full of frustration, full of anger & full of disappointment) piled up & needed a place to dump it.. I was the one these people chose to dump on.
What should I do, shouldn't I take it personally. Is that I need to just smile , wave wish them well & move on.

* Second thing, I lost my spectacles in the meeting room on thursday..
should I again blame my carelessness for not remembering it before I left the room.

* Third blunder of week- one of my team-mate wanted a Nokia series charger on thursday & she borrowed mine as I carry it along everyday. On friday when I ask her to return it back, I was taken back by her response... Sorry, I left it at my desk over-nite & now I am not able to find it anywhere.. Gaaaaawsh!! is it my mistake to lend things in courtesy. My phone is off since 2 days now as I was in no mood to buy a new charger, neither I had patience to get one.
How do I move on? I decided not to entertain any services anymore.. Am I wrong?

* The fourth one - I was returning back from guitar classes in the eveningby bus, as my cousin wanted my bike for some urgent work. So I commuted using the BMTC bus to my classes, I remember taking the ticket from the conductor of the bus & placing my wallet back into the bag. Thats it, I later realised the wallet had been stolen. Now my PAN Card, 2 wheeler + 4 wheeler License, My Credit + Debit cards, & lots of shopping cards from Shoppers Stop, West-side, Pantaloons have been lost. With that I lost the minting points as well I guess.. I blocked my debit & credit cards, but I have to approach the police for my lost PAN & DL Cards, I dont know but I am horrified by the name POLICE...
Why did the thief choose only me to get his earnings for the day.. why me?

* Top of all these, the important thing I lost was my PEACE OF MIND following all these incidents

PS: Off-late I find it difficult to recollect things.. is it short-term memory loss
PPS: Haven't told papa that I have lost my wallet or else will have a nice round of scoldings & he will never trust me.. will have to bear those repeating words of caution everytime I step out of my house... which would be boring.. so havent told him :(
PPPS: What do I do? Believe that everything happens for a reasons aaargh!! too much
PPPPS: Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets.. but I have a reason to enchant for which I looking forward this week :) (secret)

Happy New Year 2008

We will open the book...
Its pages are blank.
We are going to put words on them ourselves.......
The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year's Day.
Drop the last year into the silent limbo of the past.....
The essential message of New Year is let go off the past and embrace life as it comes to you.

May the new year bring many opportunities your way, to explore every joy of life and may your resolutions for the days ahead stay firm, turning all your dreams into reality and all your efforts into great achievements.
Happy New Year 2008

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Life Truism..

During my studies of a human nature, I discovered a great life truism...

"You cannot read in a bathtub forever, the hunger will drive you out!"

Its how you see..

Last spring I was walking in a park.

A short distance ahead of me was a mom and her three-year-old daughter.

The little girl was holding on to a string that was attached to a helium balloon.

All of a sudden, a sharp gust of wind took the balloon from the little girl. I braced myself for some screaming and crying.

But, no! As the little girl turned to watch her balloon go skyward, she gleefully shouted out, Wow!

I didn't realize it at that moment, but that little girl taught me something.

Later that day, I received a phone call from a person with news of an unexpected problem. I felt like responding with "Oh no, what should we do" But remembering that little girl, I found myself saying, "Wow, that's interesting! How can I help you?"


One thing's for sure - life's always going to keep us off balance with its unexpected problems. That's a given. What's not preordained is our response. We can choose to be frustrated or fascinated. No matter what the situation, a fascinated “Wow!” will always beat a frustrated “Oh, no”

So the next time you experience one of life's unexpected gusts, remember that little girl and make it a Wow! Experience.

The Wow! Response always works.

Down the dark cloud...

When I was in school there was a tradition which I followed for sometime, I visited the temple.

On one particular Thursday, I did the normal routine; I noticed something pass-by me. Little effort it took to my intelligence, I found out that it was a funeral mass. While that was not strange, normally funerals had 2 alter boys or more. Then I realized that there was only the usual hand full of regulars. There didn't seem to be anyone from the deceased family.
(I seem to remember that it was an old woman might be wrong)
I stood by to look towards the grave-yard, there were even fewer people there and although I was only a kid aged around 11 – 12, A sadness came upon me because I thought that if there was no one to go to her funeral - was there anyone to visit her when she was alive.

That was about 12 years ago and that memory has stayed with me all this time. While it is an old memory, some thing like loneliness would always spark that memory.

I suppose that most people would think that loneliness mainly affects the elderly and while that is true for the most part I think that it covers any age and gender.

People can feel isolated when they are away from family and friends or from their normal surroundings. e.g. working abroad, studying.

I was listening to a radio programmed about the remote islands once and the topic of being alone came up. This woman that sounded about 50 or so was saying how her husband had died had her daughter, who was married had to leave the island for work and school for the kids. The woman was nearly in tears telling how lonely she was and that her daughter could only come once or twice a year. It would break the hardest or hearts, it brought a tear to my eye.


There is a distinction between loneliness due to emotional isolation and loneliness due to social isolation. Emotional isolation appears in the absence of close emotional attachment whereas social isolation appears in the absence of an engaging social network.

I haven't experienced a twinge of loneliness myself in a long time - but now when I am loaded with a heavy load of sorrows by life and another time out of the blue when I was left by my friend to pursue his dreams. Both lasted long & the latter being stretched.

People’s personality comes into it too. Some are perfectly content to be on their own for long periods of time while others are totally unsuited to it.

What do you think?

I know it is a bit heavy of a topic but some thing to think about?

Par shayad tum samjhoge nahin...

I have started to feel so in the recent times, i am being very concerned about this. I think, I am being ignored. Is it really the case, or is it just the way I am looking at things, donno. But I am getting that feel now. The very taste of being tipped off from some thing which was very close and which was very near.

This is totally an opposite one as compared to what I felt to the most honored credit that somebody had given me some time back. Dont have a clue as to what is the driving force behind all this which is making these changes. But the things have changed for sure. I know.

May be, the realisation of the facts to u would be more far than what I expect it to be. But eventually u wil be there, with the measure of height and depth of my true friendship. (actually u will not have measure of that even then). That day, I may not be here sitting next to u to listen to you.

As usual, the great Kishore has sung a few beautiful lines for this...

"Hamse hai zinda wafa aur hami se hai teri mehfil jawan,
Ham jab na honge toh ro ro ke duniya doondegi mere nishaan"

Shayad tumhe ek din mehsoos hoga ki how nice it is to express if you really care for somebody. I had my pleasure in that. Even though they all say it to be very filmi (which indeed is), but I dont mind. I express myself in all the ways possible to make sure they have some one who is atleast next to them during good/bad times.

Par shayad tum samjhoge nahin...