Everything but Mine...

She said, “You’re nice. The girl who gets your love is lucky.”
Then after a while, she showed him a picture, “He’s my man.”
And he said, “You know what? he’s luckier cause the girl I love loves him.”

Slowly, he broke down; tears fell from his eyes, his heart shattered into pieces, all the sweet memories played inside his mind. And like that he stayed while watching her walk out of his life with a note in his hand which read “Time has come where I should let you go, I’d let you believe that I fooled you. I know this would hurt but it would hurt more if you’ll find out that I loved you but I couldn’t fight for you.”

The clouds poured in to accompany him.. as his mind ran through myriad of feelings.. He always knew looking back on the tears would make him laugh. But he never knew looking back on the laughs would make him cry.

His friend once had asked – “Do you love her”
His answer, “Yes". He asked him again, "Does she love you?"
He sat down, looked at the stars, closed his eyes and said, “Wishes do come true, right?”

No matter how loud he laughed, he was still not happy. No matter how hard he would cry, the sadness inside grew. The more people love him, the more he felt empty.

Several months later...
He ran towards the only place of solace he knew after his office every evening, the beach, the vastness of waters before him, and the untrammeled vista. He kept walking along the beach, farther and farther, he himself not knowing where to.

He wanted to ask her, if she knew the difference between the two of them?

I trusted you that’s why I held on. I loved you that’s why I let you go. But you? You just left me without any valid reason.

What can he do that I can’t do? What can he make you feel that I can’t? Why can’t you feel that way for me too? What does he have that I don’t? Forget I asked. I already know. He has you.

I’ve already told everybody that I’ve moved on and that things are better off like this, that we’re just friends. But one thing I haven’t told them is that I’ve been lying all this time I can pretend and say I can let go of you. I can pretend to smile and laugh over the thought of losing you. I can say I can get over this hurt fast. But my heart can't pretend cause deep inside it’s bleeding.

I don’t hate you for breaking my heart cause I’m almost getting over you but I could hate you for making me fall once more cause I know once again, you’ll only be slamming my door. I tried to take away the pain by finding someone new but then I came to realize that no one compares to you. And even if I look around pretending not to cry, I’ll always go back to the day you finally said goodbye.

If all is fair, why did you hurt me so? If all ends well, why did you have to go? If happily ever after is true then why am I here crying over you?

Fairy tales usually start with “once upon a time” and end with “and they lived happily ever after”. But for us it’s “they lived happily ever after once upon a time” as he walked through the crimson dusk..


…Zindagi Migzara (Life goes on)

How I wish..

As Mother Theresa said The most terrible poverty is loneliness, and the feeling of being unloved.
I walk through oceans of shimmering blue and green, white foam rising and falling above my head. Creatures of thousands of colors dart past my eyes and disappear as quickly as they appeared. I continue walking.
Suddenly, the jeweled waters melt into rolling waves of people. Claustrophobic fear rises up inside me and pushes at my frantically beating heart. Looking around, I see no one I recognize, as this sea of faceless figures marches on. Oblivious to each other and the world around them, they only know their destination and their haste to get there. They stop. What am I thinking over...
Loneliness affects everyone at one time or another. Loneliness changes the way a person thinks and behaves. Seclusion can have various effects on a person. The person may become bitter and suffer from denial of the friendships that he needs.
Loneliness also can derive from several places within an individual. He will isolate himself away from others because he thinks they will hurt him, which may be true, but not in all cases.
Simple relationships and unconditional care could have prevented each one of us from going through awry situations. Loneliness has affected each person differently, but the source of why they changed is the same.
But somewhere my gut says you are lonely when you don't know yourself. We must realise loneliness is to express the pain of being alone. But there is solitude as well to express the glory of being alone.
That shouldn’t inspire a person to live alone as he will not succeed as a human being. His heart withers if it does not answer another heart. His mind shrinks away if he hears only the echoes of his own thoughts.
I want to be with people around, I want to socialize and edge those moments spent into my life’s notebook. I've got everything I need except a woman. And I'm not one of those men who think a woman is the answer to everything, but I'm tired of being alone. Where are you, honey.. cross my roads???

Help me to get out of it my friends if I’m wrong…